Is it me or is it my shadow?

I haven't written for a long time. Somehow the words do not come out. Somehow there is always a debate within me and the negative force always manages to assert itself. Now, as I grope in the darkness of words, I have this dark suspicion that it might be a spirit inside me who tells me to pen a few lines while there is another one who dissuades. I have realized that yet again I need to choose sides in this war between the two spirits and for once I have decided to switch allegiance to the one who believes rather than the one who strikes down my dreams. There is a strange feeling of elation - a sense of achievement in this minor act - maybe a foundation of the road to salvation .......... or is it that I am excited for nothing? But then I cannot be fooled on this one. I can see the shades of positiveness and even if I would have been blind I would still have smelt it. This new found belief is a very minor one. But it is one that fills me with hope and I know that I will live and fight for it.

waiting for the sun

to all those devotees of perfect eternity, i have just arrived....